OUT OF ROUTINE.

October 01, 2020

OUT OF ROUTINE.

It's just like another day in the routine that i have been following since the very beginning of life i suppose! But now it is somehow infuriating that its even hard to follow such thing daily. I am trying everyday and every moment to follow this simple routine:

" EAT. STUDY. SLEEP. REPEAT."

BUT somehow even this has stopped suiting me. The reason behind this is not clear to me till now and honestly, lately i am not even trying finding one! It is just that its been long that i am living such a tedious life that now even weekends aren't exciting to me. Just another day where i can eat, lie down almost everywhere in my space and just read if needed or i want to.

It never happened to me that i started getting so dreary about my routine! Even here also it is hard to describe one because it has nothing interesting or even there no matter lies in it. Everyone out there in my vision is so happy that they are doing various things in their lives and making best of everything. But me on the other hand just lying upside down and thinking for completing my assignment which needs to be submitted days before. Obviously there is something i need to fix in but the question is WHAT AND WHERE IT LIES?

I know there is a problem and i want to sort it out as soon as possible but i am unable to find it. I am not able to decide whether it lies within me or is it just the situation making me go crazy? Everything important right now bores me so i don't do that but the ones which are of no need excites me a lot that i want to do it just right away. It is so unpredictable that how our circumstances influences and controls us in a way that we loose control on ourselves only.

But is this just the very thinking of my mind or is it real? ; i cannot answer it in the moment. I just really hope that this phase which has blurred my vision that everything now seems unreal passes soon and hopefully i will get back on track as soon as possible!